It’s been weeks since my last post, I have 3 draft posts still waiting to be published.

Everything has been elusive.

Some moved on.
Some thrashed it away.
Some disgust me.
Some shoved it in my face.
Some forgot.
Some made a point.
Some created scenes.

I’ve actually lost nothing but my will to do something large.

The only thing I am looking forward to is the next holiday trip away. I’m a holiday-whore ?? I enjoy being away from familiar faces.

So, where do I stand?

Sleep deprived, potty-training with Lily, food craves, Guinness Stout pumping, drastic mood swings, frequent headaches, talking dirty to myself.

I lost hope. I want hope. I know this isn’t my last.
I missed the times. I missed the comfort zone. I missed the happy me.

Where is my comfort pillow?
Where is my kick?
Where is my high?

I am still seeking.

We’ve just added a new member in our family – a 2 months old female Golden Retriever

She’s my new love. One door closes, another door opens!

Now, I’m the mummy of two little precious bitches.

Any good name?

That 22 months were the best I had. WE loved, smiled, cried, laughed, screamed.

Memories. I wished better.

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Sab recommended this test.

I would say pretty much 85% accurate about myself.

Try it!!!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend – you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.