I couldn’t believe I’m a Third year student now. It’s pretty shameful going into a Year One class this semester. Looking at these eager students, I was petrified with a big cheesy smile smacked right on my face. This kiddos are way too funny. I love coming back to uni, I love my girlfriends.

The past three weeks was amazing. Hot guys everywhere. Flirtatious. Looking at all the hotties around me, I smirked so hard, Thai boy noticed and quietly slipped a piece of paper with his mobile number at one of the nightouts in Bangkok *winks* I feel like 13 all over again. Crush,  Monkey Love!! Whatever you may name them.. I’m loving it!

Traveling seems to take over my life. I want uni life to end soon. Travel the world, laugh with the people, tease the boys. I’m considering working for AirAsia. Truthfully, the only thing that is holding me back is my two babies, Mei Mei and Lily. I kept thinking about bringing them along, especially Lilly- hottie magnet!!

It’s almost the end of the Eighth month of 2009. It’s been a very fruitful eight months. I’m excited how I’m going to end my 2009. My 21st is going to be a blast. Well, at least I know I’m heading to my paradise. My sweet sweet heaven where delightful sun and beach greets me.

I had a great conversation with a good friend last night. How things just sit nicely on my 2009 calendar. It’s intriguing and exciting to see what’s more to come. Perhaps a BIG surprise.

Family holidays are coming up. I’m excited. It’s been a long long time since we’ve bonded. It’s going to a great one.

Stef’s birthday party is tonight. My annual bonding time with the bitches. Darynne, I miss you. Ditch your boyfriend tonight. You’re all mine!!!

I missed Perth, the two weeks of blue skies and amazing adventures, now time for a brand new one.

Bustling city – My Virgin Trip to Bangkok, say hello to shopping shopping!!!

Oh, I’m getting at least 5 pairs of bikinis here!

The companies are happy teasers and atrociously funny ladies. My first all female trip. This is going to be great.

The Reflections is definitely well-recommended by PinkPau and KY. Got FREE WIFI!!! I love the rooms I’ve got for the girls despite the stairs climbing. My room is so cute la. #402 Bird Nest

Plus what tops it better than a cutie at the front desk AND a lovely bed to dream and fantasize on tonight! Me and that cute boy in the bath tub!!

At this very moment,
instead of packing my luggage back to KL.
I’m sitting in front of the laptop -
sulking and crying.

At this very moment,
I still dream.
Dream big,
dream nice,
dream far.

At this very moment,
I wished I made better choices.
I wished time had never come into my way.

At this very moment,
my heart breaks,
my gut aches,
my eye waters.

At this very moment,
I’m speechless;
and yet,
I want to stir that feeling all over again.

At this very moment,
I want to turn back time,
boarding the plane,
this time,
just like 2 weeks ago.

At this very moment,
all I want is 
a hot tea and a good laugh.
A laugh that keeps me alive.
A laugh that makes me cry.
A laugh that never dies.

At this very moment,
I should wake up.
To a reality that bites;
A reality that cries;
A reality that hits me so hard,
I can hardly reach the skies.

At this very moment,
I end my night,
with one good cry.

It occured again.
That feeling.

The feeling I left months ago,
The feeling I vowed not to encounter again,
The feeling I doubt I could take on again.

I distanced myself once,
I knew it does me no good.
But life is that rich,
it’s filled with funny hopes and
neverending disappointments.

I’m thinking how far this weird venture is ever good,
if it would pops my life,
or fits into my small black dirty wooden box
and never appears again.

Today,
this feeling emerged out of no where.

I’m still learning.
Still trying.
Still hoping.

I was doing the Friday club hopping before I realised that the people here has not much interest in Asian chicks. Probably the only time I’ve got hit on was by the drunk or the old socks(literally). Honestly, I feel very much unappreciated. In KL, I could see stares and men trying to impress me. But over here, the club bouncers checked my passport and that’s it. The best pick up line was, “Hey, I know you from the Chinese drama. You’re really famous!” It’s way too hilarious not to laugh right in front of him.

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